Friday, May 6, 2016
Our First Mother's Day
Oh baby Wyatt, where do I begin. It's almost surreal to think that you are almost one year old, let alone we are celebrating mothers day. Mother, a term that I was not real keen on for a majority of my life. I had travels to do, concerts to attend, and just living my life to the fullest really. Or so I thought that was living life to the fullest. Life pretty much revolved around me.
That soon changed. The moment you popped out, my life had new meaning and it quickly revolved around you. I cannot explain how you have changed my life in the most amazing ways. I have found a new sense of pride in watching you grow and learn all the things you do, from crawling, to pattycake, and feeding yourself to babbling at the top of your lungs. I have also found a new sense of worry. A worry of if you are coming down with a sickness, if I am doing a good enough job at raising you, if you are safe when I'm not around. Prior to you I had little to no worries. Fearless you might say. I will take these worries over fearless any day.
I am quickly learning how independent you can become. In the begining you needed me, all of me. You needed my skin on your skin to know this outside world was an ok place to live. You needed my milk to grow and become strong. You needed my arms to hold you tight to make you feel safe and calm. Now you drink a bottle on your own. You feed yourself food, on your own. You no longer cuddle at bedtime, but prefer to just be put to bed.
I cherish the moments when you come crawling to me with your hands extended "wanting me". I know that those moments of 'needing me" will soon change as you grown into a young gentlman. You will need me in other ways. Instead of needing me to hold you tight when those mean teeth are pushing through, you will need my support and advice, Instead of needing me to save you when you roll on your back and can't get back over, you will need me for a ride to an event, or encouragement to ask that special girl to the school dance.
One of the best things that you have going for you is that I was blessed with the greatest role model of a mom. If I am at least half the mom to you, that your grandma was to me, you will have a bright future little man. I can't wait to see where this road takes us, you and me.