Here's the deal; you spend 6 hours in labor and after you push out that little bundle of joy you have an army of nurses that are at your every call. They check on you every hour, bring you anything you need, and take care of the baby while you get some rest. Then all of a sudden they tell you that you are ready to go home after 2 days of nonstop care and your quick advisers for any and all baby related questions and concerns. My instant thought: But wait, you all aren't coming with me?!?!
You head home and it honestly feels like you are just babysitting and someone is coming to pick up this lil nugget at anytime. It is all trial and error. Then after a wonderful evening and first day home with your new lil one he all of a sudden gets pissed. When I say pissed, i mean pissed. Like scream at the top of his lungs for 4. HOURS. STRAIGHT! I bawled. I was a horrible mom. I couldn't even sooth my baby. I didn't know what was wrong. Thank god for a wonderful husband and sister that came over to attempt to calm the storm. After a healthy poop and some serious burps we finally had a sleeping baby. Did I mention 4 hours later?
All I wanted to do was go back to the hospital and have the nurses care for me and my new baby that I felt I was failing at miserably. I cried. I have never been a crier. Very rarely do I have emotions that soar or even get expressed. That changes with a baby. Those hormones that people speak of are legit. I sometimes just burst in to tears and not even have a reason or know why. So strange. Hopefully that goes away........it does right?
With all that being said, we are slowly but surely getting adjusted. Through the ups and downs and just going day by day its moments like when he shits his diaper with a big grin on his face that I realize I wouldn't change a thing.
Congrats to you and yours. That is the best description ever. My baby turns 13 next week so when people say it goes by so fast they aren't kidding.
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